Thursday, July 16, 2009

How Sally Got Her Groove Back

Okay, so it's not back yet. And I am still completely unsure how to get it back. Or if it is even possible to get it back. I'd say it's a work in progress.

Nothing about my life has been what I "expected" since the end of February. You may have noticed that this time period is also when I stopped writing and stopped communicating. I want to tell you, my friends, my family, and all of you who have followed my journey and willed me through my transplant, that I am sorry I have not kept you updated and not responded to your efforts at keeping/getting in touch. I have intended to write on this blog every day. I just haven't known how. I am not who I used to be but haven't finished figuring out who I am. Or who I am going to be. So I humbly ask for your patience and tolerance while I go through this process.

Anyways.

I am determined to write regularly, with some current news mixed in with a trip down transplant lane. I literally have so much inisde to share with you all that I don't know where and how to start. Ignore my new posts and emails if you like. I do worry that I might exhaust you if the flood gates really open. But I NEED to tell you, as I can, about where I have been and who I am getting back. I genuinely feel that I have some things to say that need to be heard. And I also genuinely feel that until I get it all out, I can't move on.

I am so nervous that I am shaking. Learning to open up again will be difficult for me. If you can, come along for the ride. And as always, welcome to Sally Land.

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Sally,
I am SO glad to hear you are not only hanging on for dear life, but healing as well. May the Lord lift you up on wings like eagles so you don't grow weary or faint in the midst of this battle. Know I love and pray for you. Good to see pics. I try to remember the pain has purpose, as it did with Allison. I miss and love you. Kelly (Book)

PrescottSharon said...

Girlfriend, you are a miracle. Praise God! Vent away!
Sharon Harlow, AZ

Ginger said...

Your experience is important for all of us to hear about. Namaste Sally.

Cassandra said...

LOVE YOU GIRL!!! Keep the updates coming, no such thing as too much info, we are here to support you and if writing makes you feel better, then I am sure I speak for everyone when I say GO FOR IT, it's the least we can do and believe me, we are happy to know what you're thinking and experiencing, even if it's scary stuff sometimes. Give my love to the boys, all three of them, please. Miss you, girl.

Abrazos,
Casey

Anonymous said...

Please do share... we are all here to support and love you, and we do. I agree, you are a miracle and He deserves all the praise. Love you! David, Angie & Zoe

Anonymous said...

Yay!!!! You are back!!!
I have been checking this blog frequently, waiting to see how you are!
You don't know me, but your husband has taken care of me and my children many times (he is wonderful), and being a mom of the same age as you, I really felt connected to you somehow...
I am SO GLAD you are back!!! Keep us posted, and pour out your feelings knowing that there are people you don't even know that care about you and will listen to every word you have to say! We are here for you, Sally!

Linda said...

It's ok not to know who you are or where you are going or who you are going to be. Painful, but okay. Your blog readers have been waiting for your wit, your intelligence and the beauty of who you are whether you feel good or not, mentally or physically. I love you and have been like many others waiting for you to post something. Love, Linda Fluken

Jen said...

So good to hear from you and would love to hear all about it.

Thinking of you!!
Jen Griffin in Dallas

Anonymous said...

Sally
I am sure that you are overcome with thoughts and emotions--how can you not. What an amazing journey you have been on and are STILL on. God is sooo good and He is at work---big plans for you my sweet!
Cant wait to hear your "flood gates open"---I can relate to some extent!
Much love to you and yours.
Kami